It is a daily struggle not live life for myself, pursuing only what is in my best interest and what will boost my rapport among those I admire. I have been influenced from a tender age that I am to put myself first and do whatever is necessary to establish wealth, position and power; essentially who we are, what we do, and how much we make, will establish our social status, credibility and worth.
Though I tried to follow these guidelines to success, I realized that no satisfaction is attained through this way of living. Getting my own way makes me happy for a moment but leaves me only desiring more. This reading below summed it up really well for me:

It is obvious what kind of life develops out of trying to get your own way all the time: repetitive, loveless, cheap sex; a stinking accumulation of mental and emotional garbage; frenzied and joyless grabs for happiness; trinket gods; magic show religion; paranoid loneliness; cut throat competition; all-consuming-yet-never-satisfied wants; a brutal temper; an impotence to love or be loved; divided homes and divided lives; small minded and lopsided pursuits; the vicious habit of depersonalizing everyone into a rival; uncontrolled and uncontrollable addictions; ugly parodies of community. I could go on.But what happens when we live God's way?

He brings gifts into our lives, much the same way that fruit appears in an orchard----things like affection for others, exuberance about life, serenity. We develop a willingness to stick with things, a sense of compassion in the heart, and a conviction that a basic holiness permeates things and people. We find ourselves involved in loyal commitments, not needing to force our way in life, able to marshal and direct our energies wisely.
(The Message)




